Thank you all for the sweet comments on my last post. I did get a decent night sleep, which helped, the pain is still there, not as bad but tolerable. I don't think I realized how much my first baby leaving the nest is affecting me. Seriously, just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes and heaven forbid hubby mention anything about it(which he was trying to talk to me about last night and I just didn't want to hear it). In my head I know he will be 19 in October(he's my Halloween baby), he's smart, confident, and outgoing. I know he will be fine in the Marines... he will have room and board, a paycheck, and a career. But in my heart he is still my first born baby, how will he make it without us?~ I know he will, I did. I left home at 18(almost 19) and did fine. I thought I was an adult, and though I struggled at times, I made it. However, I do remember crying many nights those first few weeks away, I was homesick I guess. I know he will be too, and that just breaks my heart. Especially since the only communication will be through letters for 3 months!
Oh my goodness, I'm just a wreck, bawling as I type and Mason keeps looking at me all concerned and saying "I love you, I love you". He tells me this at least a hundred times a day with many of those times having the words "really, really, really, really much" following them. My little sunshine.
I know my nest is far from empty, but this new hurdle of letting one fly is much harder than I thought it would be.
Deep breaths and it is OK to cry. I'm proud of Cameron and I know he will do well.
The picture above is from this morning, I picked 6 more jack be little pumpkins from my garden and there are still more coming. Nature is pushing the fall decorating on me, guess I need to stop the self pity and get busy... we have a surprise party coming on Saturday and I want the house to look nice(might throw in an early 19th birthday cake too).
Thank you all again,
Tiff
{{{Tiff}}} My only daughter will be leaving for college in the fall of '13 and I am beginning to feel many of the things you are feeling. I don't think you can ever really prepare yourself for this. Praying that God would give you the courage and strength to get through this time.
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My first born joined the Marines back in 1996, once he got on the bus and took off, I lost it and cried all the way home! Roots and wings!!
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you Tiff.Enjoy your time with him while he's home.
ReplyDeleteMy eldest daughter left home when she was 22,I remember being devastated ,she went to live about 50miles away.Not too bad.
Then when she was 28,her and her partner emigrated to Australia.I tell you Tif that day at the airport was the worst in my life.They have lived in Australia for almost five years now and for most of the time I'm ok,but I still have days when all I want to do is cry.
Oh dear,I dont think this is helping you at all.....
As I said Tif ,enjoy him while he's home.Have a lovely party.
Love to you all Laura xx
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Laura, please don't start me off! As you know I know all about the goodbye thingy!
DeleteTiff you will be OK.... deep breaths!
Ohhh! I hope things get smoother for you soon! Praying for you!
ReplyDeleteI completely understand how difficult it is to let go and watch them fly on their own.
ReplyDeleteI went thru it when Kelsey moved to CA.
It does get easier, I promise.
I know it doesn't feel possible right now, but it will.
Now she is back in IL a few blocks away and she made great memories on her adventure away.
She plans on moving back to CA in a couple of yrs, but I'm not going to think about that right now. ;)
Prayers going up for you, your son, and all your family.
Hugs,
Tam
Sending hugs!! That's all!!
ReplyDeleteBoth of my girls(now 34 and 30)are married and the oldest is the mother of our only grandchild..It was very hard when they moved out but it's what had to be done so they could begin their journey and start their life..It's not easy..I know because a piece of my heart went with them when they left the nest..Wishing you peace on this difficult time..
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you.
ReplyDeleteHope your night is wonderfully restful, and your day tomorrow is calm and as peaceful as possible.
If we were neighbors, or even in the same state, I would bring your crew something delicious for dinner, and a pint of ice cream, just for you!
Hugs to you Tiff, letting our babies leave the nest is not easy. I know It will be hard when it happens under our roof.
ReplyDeleteBest to you and your family, Janie
Aww Tiff ~ I'm so sorry that your son is gone, but he will be back before you know it ! Kids always need their momma no matter how old they get & he will be hurrying home to you !! Sending you a big HUG sweetie !! xoxo
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